It Is Equally as Powerful to Be The One Receiving Healing & Transformation
- Fenda Ashworth
- 4 days ago
- 4 min read
This, I feel is one of the core energy transmissions I am here to express.
And I have had all of the negative beliefs and experiences Ive needed to help me understand and appreciate this.
What I have consistently felt and seen in my own healing journey, is the energy of judgement and shame of being the one who needs or wants healing and transformation.
When the very choice to do this is powerful in itself.
I have wildly swung between feeling the power of healing myself and choosing this journey and then also feeling powerless about it and like something is wrong with me that I need this much healing...or its taking this long....or whatever form the judgements come in.
So I am writing this to validate and remind myself and whoever needs to hear this too, that it is equally as powerful to be the receiver of healing and transformation (the one doing it) as it is to be the one who holds space, guides, and shares wisdom from the journey. (And when Ive felt this even more deeply, the two start to beget and resemble each other).
The reason I can hold such a deep and powerful space for people to heal and transform in themselves, is because I have received healing and allowed my own transformation to take place by being in healing sessions with others who have done the same. (its like a healing fractal of awesomeness!).
I realised very deeply that I am not lesser (less powerful) or broken, or whatever the judgement is, because Im the one "being" healed or "needing" healing.....but it can REALLY feel like that.
Because, despite that healing and transformation seems to be more and more a thing these days....I still see that not everyone is choosing to really do the "deep" thing. Or to really "go there".
It still feels like a path less travelled. And I sometimes start to doubt myself because I see a lot of people talking the talk, but not a lot of embodied walking the walk. And yes this triggers me. Which is what brought me to this powerful place in myself...again.
I have no doubt that power imbalances are one of the main things Ive chosen to heal in my journey. And the core truth I have been shown in this is these imbalances live in me, so therefore I experience them in the outer world. I know this because the universe gives me the reflections of this almost immediately in my path (insert laughing emoji lol). When I slip into believing im less or more powerful than someone else or something else...boom...I get the trigger.
Because I feel that my guidance from spirit is that a lot of what is being transformed at the moment is power imbalances. Things are coming back to balance. This will be the way of the future.
Balancing everything. Within and without.
And true balance is not about everything being the same, but on a fundamental energetic level that everything and everyone is held and seen as equally valid, valued and powerful....as they are. (Spirit likes to show me this through a little analogy of two trees next to each other, one being huge and one being small...and that I am to see that even though they are different sizes physically, that the same power is in them...as they are.)

This feels like a huge spiritual lesson for me. And I am grateful that Im reminded of this daily!
That if I truly want to understand what my true power is on a spiritual level, then I need to understand that power is in the equal validation of seeing every being, everything in creation as equally powerful in my perception. And even more deeply....that I WANT them to be in their power as they are.
So yes....being triggered, being messy, having loads of conditioning and patterns, having emotions, being wounded, hurt, being in pain and fear....it's all equally powerful.
Then consciously choosing to align with how your power actually works begins with choosing to heal and transform..taking responsibility for ones self...beliefs, feelings and experience of love...and non-love.
And then choosing to do it over and over again....even when it seems like its "not" the way to do things. Trigger after trigger, feeling every emotion that comes up, facing every fear and releasing every negative belief with love. And with this, you're letting the universe know that you are ready to know and understand what your true power is. That you want to take responsibility for your perception of reality and choose love.
My higher self always gently reminds me to align with this truth so that when I support and guide others on their journey, im in the most helpful energy, not only for them...but for me too. Because this is a deep level of respect that helps me release my patterns of people-pleasing, over-giving, trying to prove my value and worthiness, and all manner of imbalances I have so I can clearly see and be there for that person without putting my prawns in their salad! (an analogy for having hidden agendas...its a private joke...)
And again, I am ever so grateful to have these reflections. I am grateful to my intense triggers that feel ever so uncomfortable. Because I get to go into these deep places within of true empowerment, freedom and self-love.
Man I love this stuff!
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