My Spiritual Awakening & Healing Story

I feel like it’s finally time to fully come out of the spiritual closet (lol!).

It’s taken me quite a few years to really integrate and understand my journey from a deeper and more aligned perspective.

There is a lot to my story proceeding the actual experience and I’ve attempted to write about it numerous times…but seriously…i could literally write a book and maybe I will one day.

There was a lot of magical synchronicity that led to this day…just know that.

So on this random February day in 2015, I’m walking down the street, talking to my new boyfriend, David on the phone and when he said the words “I love you” I realised I felt the same way and said it back, and then boom! My heart opened and a flood of liquid bliss like love just filled my entire body.

The whole world around me looked vibrant and alive. I felt this flood of what I know now was “universal intelligence” that seemed to be me yet not me at the same time.

I had this instant knowing that this was meant to happen and that everything in my life was perfect and had ro happen for me to be in this moment. I felt nothing but love for my life and life itself and this beautiful man on the other end of the phone.

I was trying to describe it to him as it was happening, and he seemed delighted by it and not surprised at the same time.

I remember going home and it just continued and got stronger. I kept sensing all of this knowing running through my body, like I was being shown things…about life, the universe, the future. I felt like I was being shown the secrets of the universe.

I felt like I was one with everything, there was so much love and it was everything.

Yes there were times I thought, wow I must be really in love with this person…which was 100% true. But this was not a human sense of love…it was beyond that. It was like I was in a love affair with existence as well as him (and myself!).

This lasted about two weeks. And by then end of that two weeks I was getting a little frazzled and scared by the experience as it was very intense. I couldn’t sleep properly, i had compulsions to express those deep truths…which I did to David a lot, I was wanting to be creative, I wrote songs, I wanted to meditate a lot and weirdly I couldn’t wear shoes. I look back now and understand that so much energy was coursing through my body that I intuitively needed to ground by not wearing shoes. I lived near the ocean at the time and would walk down there everyday and put my feet in the sand and ocean which calmed it down a little bit.

By the end of the two weeks I literally thought I was going mad and was getting worried, so David, bless him, helped me research what was happening to me…he started to tell me about kundalini. Which I had no idea about at all. Even though I was quite spiritual my whole life, I had never delved into that subject.

So I started researching and came across, by divine orchestration, websites about the twin flame experience. This floored me. It sounded extactly like the experience I was having with him. Down to every detail. It was like the universe validated to me, this is profound so pay attention.

And that began my intense search for meaning about what was happening to me. I read so many books, found websites and YouTube’s, and went down a big path of trying to understand, meanwhile navigating this intense relationship.

When the relationship became really challenging and triggering, that’s when I was led to spiritual community and also the beginning of my actual healing and transformation. Again lots of details led to that and would fill a book.

All I knew was something profound was happening and it was spiritual and I had to follow it. And when the relationship started to show me my deepest fears, that’s when an inner guidance came to me to “remember unconditional love and start loving myself like that”. I was told to follow that no matter what.

That led me to finding a community of people that were actually teaching this very thing…and I’ve been doing that to this

This is what it actually feels like 😳

It’s almost 10 years later since that happened but I remember it like yesterday. And it’s taken a lot of time to understand it and integrate it. I literally let it lead my life.

When David passed suddenly in 2019 my world shattered completely. The next few years were incredibly hard and challenging. This I’m still integrating yet I’ve allowed that experience to heal me on the deepest level. Again a lot of details here that would fill a book.

To keep this succinct and to the point, I now know:

• my soul chose this path

• Although I had an experience of complete alignment, the real journey has been about embodying the truth of it and choosing to heal and transform the pain of separation amongst many other themes

• David and I have a soul connection that still continues to this day…I’m beginning to open up to it more and more now that I’ve moved through the transformation that the grief brought me.

• My awakening is a part of larger awakening happening on this planet…not sure of all the details but learning to trust in it has been a big theme

• Unconditional love for myself has been the answer all the way

• I’m at a time that sharing my story and the wisdom of my journey is what I’m being guided to do as well as assist other people through their own transformations

• Spiritual awakening for me has been about really being my whole, true self…nothing more, nothing less.

• Living surrendered and in flow, although challenging to do in this current world, is really the path.

• We are being supported to come into alignment with our true selves…always and in all ways. Really understanding that so you can “see” it makes the journey less challenging.

• There are a lot of genuine people on the path…and they can be very easy to spot.

• Emotions are a super power and are the very “stuff” transformation is made of.

I will talk more about this things throughout my blog and socials.

If you’re had a similar experience I’d love to hear from you.

(If you need support to integrate your experience and heal and transform your awakening themes, go to the “work with me” section for info).